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Brooke White's final words on Idol

Abrookeconf Previous experience: At the same time as being a nanny, I was doing my best to try and do the singer/songwriter thing. I did do an independent album, performed around Los Angeles for a couple of years, and tried to get some of that experience under my belt.

Handling pressure: I don’t know if you really have a choice. You get there, and I think there has just been something within me, when I thought I wasn’t able to keep going, and you totally feel like you’re sinking and it’s like, OK, swim. You have to, you realize you’re here; you have to make the best of it.

Your best performance?: It was absolutely Let It Be. 

Feelings on that final elimination night: Everything. I had anticipated it in a strange way, it was in my gut, and I thought I was strong, I really did, I felt so grateful and happy, and then boom it hit me, this is done this is over. The finality of that phase of the experience being over was sad, and then the fear of going back into the real world and what does the future hold, and also an excitement. It was just a lot of feelings that I was feeling. Yes, it was emotional, and I’d hoped so much that I could have been stronger, but I guess I’m just an emotional girl, I’m passionate, and that really came across on the stage, because I felt very vulnerable every time.

Tricks on remembering lyrics (for I Am...I Said she wrote the word "palm" from the lyric on her hand: I have not had any problems with the lyrics up until You Must Love Me and all of a sudden, it freaked me out, and I started thinking, "Oh my gosh, what if this happens again?" It just kind of plays head games. When I was singing [I Am...I Said] in my rehearsal, I kind of felt as if palm tree was not sticking in my brain, so even just the practice of writing it down on my hand helped me remember it. I didn’t even look at it because it was on the underneath side of my hand, but whatever you can use. We don’t use teleprompters, and I was playing an instrument, and singing on two songs, so it was a lot of things to remember in less than a week’s time.

Were there any songs you wanted to do but the rights couldn't clear in time?: Absolutely, I would have loved to sing a Fleetwood Mac song, or a James Taylor song. [She sang You've Got a Friend, a No. 1 single for Taylor in 1971, but as a Carole King composition, King owned the rights and it cleared for Brooke to perform.] For next week's Hall of Fame show she'd hoped to do Joni Mitchell's Help Me.

Carly_simon_cover_image_by_photog_2 Carly Simon became a fan after Brooke performed You're So Vain and, publicly, Carly said she hoped Brooke would win. The two spoke after Brooke was cut. What did Carly say?: She was incredibly supportive, very generous in her comments. It actually really boosted my spirits, it gave me the motivation and hope to keep going in the direction that I am. I do relate to her, and those singer/songwriters of the ‘70’s. I connect with what they do, and I hope I can make that happen in 2008, in a more modern, somehow incorporate both those sounds.

Plans for the Idols Tour: We are doing about three songs apiece, so I’m really looking forward to it. I’m definitely going to be playing piano, and having a good time just connecting with the fans. It’s all about the music, and not all about the competition and the judging, just the good stuff.

Any guilt for beating Carly Smithson on a week when you forgot the lyrics?: I don’t know if guilt is quite the right word for surviving. I was grateful. The voting process is very interesting. That’s why I always say, you never know what’s going to happen. I think you take what you can get, and I was grateful to people for seeing past my mistake.I think beyond the mistake, I did my very best.  I did my very best, I emotionally connected with the song, and I gave it everything I had. I’ve been packed for two weeks. There’s always a chance you could go home, but in these last couple weeks, it starts becoming more real. The contestants are so strong, and you just never know. Ever since Michael Johns went home, I think there was always this question in my mind of how long do I get. It could be any week, so you give your best performance, and then it’s out of your hands.

Confidence issues: Well, I was very open, and honest that struggle that I have, and to be honest again, it escalated at times during Idol, and at other times, I felt like I had a better handle on it.  It was very much a roller coaster ride. Tuesday, I think I felt kind of a resurge of confidence that I hadn’t felt in a long time, a lot of joy, gratitude for being in that place and I think that’s what gave me that boost, and it felt great. Even though I went home it was wonderful to leave on that note. I know that Simon said it was a nightmare or whatever, but personally, I think it was a great moment, and I’ve had such incredible support from fans, which also helps to reassure you. Finding that inner confidence is something that has definitely been a struggle for me, but I’m learning, I’m growing, and Idol definitely helped me work on that. We always say this show brings everything to the surface that might be an issue for you, and that one is certainly one of them, but I worked through it, and at times, had to work through it in a very public way.

I’ve had comparison issues my whole life. I didn’t start singing until I was a teenager, until I was about David Archuleta’s age, and I never thought I had a nice voice. It wasn’t pretty, it was this low, raspy thing, I didn’t have a big range, and I think I was very intimidated by other singers, especially on American Idol where it’s so focused on vocals. I didn’t know how well I would do, or if I would survive. I spoke with Carly Simon this morning during an interview, and she just said some things that really meant a lot to me. It’s OK to be different and it’s important to accept that and make the most of it. There are people out there who appreciate it, so you just have to go with it.

Paula Abdul's gaffe: Well, it is live television, anything can happen. Last week, I stopped and restarted my song, it’s just human moments that happen on the show. I don’t exactly [know] what happened with Paula, but stuff happens on the show, and when it’s live, things can change very quickly, and they decide in the middle of the show to change something, and I’m sure she just kind of got lost in the moment. She’s a good-hearted woman, and you just move on.

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Lesley

Good riddance to her and her ass kissy, sappy, saccharine self...meh!

HoCo

Syesha's become the only watchable, likable one left.

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